So, apparently it's time for my yearly update... Maybe I'll get around to posting more often since I've been filling my brain with all sorts of information.
What sorts of information you ask? Scientific kinds. Specifically animal science.
Yeah, I probably should have posted a lot earlier, but I got accepted into a Veterinary Technician program here in the Chicago area. It's a quick program, only 18 months (with only 14 months left). Right now, I'm elbow deep in learning about parasites, puppy nutrition and how blood works. I even have a stethoscope. I'm legit.
What's even better is that I've fallen into a group of friends that constantly having me laughing and do well to keep me focused on school work. I'm not the most social person, but being an introvert does have its perks. And one of those perks is being able to find a person (or group of people) that I genuinely enjoy being around, and it's large enough that I can step back and just enjoy the interactions among everyone. It also helps that there's a kennel full of dogs, cats, rabbits, rats and mice that I can escape to when things get overwhelming.
So far, I've survived one round of finals, but the end of term 2 is quickly approaching (as in, I have 4 finals next week) and I don't think I've ever been more thankful for finally giving in and accepting the fact that no matter how hard I try, anxiety medication is a requirement for me to function properly. And coffee. Always coffee.
Pills do well to keep my brain from going into overdrive and jumping to awful conclusions. They quiet the negative little voice, of which I have termed "my shovel." It's difficult to convey in words just how awesome that second part is. Its taken YEARS to finally get to a point where I can finally understand my mental condition, cope, and concisely explain to others what to expect from me.
But this post isn't supposed to be all about my poor brain wiring. No... It's not about how my rabbit fecal test splashed into my face yesterday either. It's about progress. Everyday I learn something new. Everyday I improve myself a little bit. Everyday I'm thankful for the people in my life who've stuck around, the ones who keep me going, the ones who push me to be the best that I can be. People, animals, knowledge.. little reminders that let me know I'm finally on the right course in life. I spent a lot of time growing up feeling lost and out of place. I found comfort in being uncomfortable and in knowing that sooner or later everything will change- the scenery, the people, the emotions, the ambitions, everything. It's still emotional to say, but losing Judy, saying goodbye to my parents, missing my sister.. all these things helped me realize that I have to accept the here and now and be willing to adapt to whatever happens. It's made me stronger. I love a little harder, I let my softness show a little more. I revel in my Laura-ness.
Also- Dunkin needs to sell a 32oz coffee. XX-Large. Is that too much to ask?
